ok, so i just though i would share my intensely good news with everyone...

I

 got

 accepted

to the

 University    of

 Arkansas

at Fort Smith!!

I'm so happy....I can't wait, now i just have to figure out where to live....

So I've got bowling tomorrow, and i won't be at school. I'll see everyone on tuesday, have a great weekend!

Valentine's Day Sucks...

hello...i figured that i should update since it has been so long...i don't really have a lot to say other than valentine's day sucks, and darren is being, well, a boy...basically...he hurt my feelings so bad, and i'm really not even sure that he knows...but, he's getting a taste of his own medicine. if he wants to talk to me, he can call me...why should i waste the minutes on my phone, and run the battery down, trying to get someone to talk to me when they are more into playing a game, or laughing along with his room mate at what i feel than talking to me for a few minutes...doesn't he understand that since i can't see him as much, all i want it to just simply hear his voice for a little while? does he not know that just hearing him laugh makes my whole day better? and being able to picture him smiling makes me smile? why can't he see the little things that make me soo happy? and why can't he see that sometimes, he is mean to me, and it makes it hurt even worse when he doesn't really know what to say? does he not know that at night, when we are together, and he just wraps his arms around me, i feel nothing but his arms? or that when he looks into my eyes, i don't see anything else? i wish for just one day, he could feel what i feel for him, and see himself the way i see him. maybe, just maybe, he would understand, and he would strive to make me get those little butterflies and never want to open my eyes back to the real world when we kiss...but these are only wishes, and i know that wishes don't come true. I LOVE him so much, and he doesn't even really know the extent of it. when we aren't together, or when i haven't talked to him all day, i miss him in everyway there is. i love to fall asleep with his voice echoing in my head. knowing that when i wake up, i will one day closer to falling asleep in his arms and waking up next to him and seeing him smile with that first good morning kiss. but somehow, i think he never will, because he doesn't look into me like i look into him. he doesn't realize that i really do care, and that i really do worry. but, this is life, and sometimes, people just really don't understand

Mariko

Hello my friends. So I'm bored, sick, and tired, and I'm really ready to go to bed, but I'm being a nice girlfriend and TRYING to talk to Darren...But, he seems to be playing pool with the Black Pony...aka...Josh, his roomate...Great guy...Anyways. We have a game tomorrow that I just found out about today..NICE...I had a chemistry test not yesterday, and I only missed one question on it, and I only really missed part of it, so that was pretty cool. I made a 100 on the quiz we took Friday * I think* so that's pretty cool. Oh yea, I changed my background and stuff, hope everyone likes the  black and stuff. I'm trying to draw this out so that I can at least give Darren a chance to come back, but hey, ya know, you can only wait for so long. I stole his class ring from him like one day last week....I'm keeping it. I'm trying to figure out what to do about where and how I'm going to live if I go to UAFS. My sisters are going to be moving in with my dad...go figure, that man ALWAYS lets me down...and if I can't get into the apartments on campus, then I will have to live on my own. I can't afford to drive back and forth every other day. Gas is just TOO expensive. So, I was talking to Darren about this, and he said that IF he ends up transfering up there, then he wouldn't object to getting an apartment together...I'm think that this could be a lasting relationship. Or at least for a long time...maybe not an all the way thing. I'm not sure if this is sweet or really even how to think of it. I unfortunately missed out on the giving blood thing today. :( I don't weigh enough...Trust me, I should, have you ever seen me eat??? Anyways, and it hasn't been a year since I've had my tattoo started. Speaking of, maybe next Friday, I can get it finished. I'm hoping that Darren can go with me. I would really like to have a friend with me. Plus, I don't want to drive home afterwards. That sucks. AND, we have regionals the day after, but it's ok. I'll live. I want to get it finished . So I can get started on another. Hmmm, ok, so I think I may have ran out of stuff to write about....so I'm gonna go, and I'll talk to everyone later....

Michelle, this one counts as like a weeks worth of updates.....

Love ya GUYS!

Mariko

HEY HEY HEY! How is everyone doing? I'm doing good...even better since i know that darren is coming down tonight...he's so sweet...i was talking to him last night, and he said that what he was hiding from me monday is going to be a graduation gift and that it would be good! I really can't wait until graduation. It's getting so much closer! College is getting closer too. A new life to start...new people and new faces...I'm really looking forward to it. But, bowling sucked today...ms. j. gets on my last nerves somedays, and today was that day.I just completely quit listening to her. and bowled the way i wanted to. i have a little bit of a head ache, so, i'm going to go, there are a few things i need to do. Later ya'll...

Mariko